Archive for June, 2008

Engaged: Take 2

Posted in Random on June 17, 2008 by Danielle Self

I’m re-engaged!  Yea chicka what chicka fake id

Its going to be December 18th or 20th.  The place that I want to have it is available on the 18th.. but thats a Thursday. So I guess we’ll have to see.  Since its going to be around Christmas, the Lights of the Ozarks will be up which you can see here, here, and here. And the location that we are looking at is right across from the Square so it would be like a ready made picture taking area.  And the horses and carriages will already be down there… we can just reserve one.

J wants to wear his dress blues so I think that the colors will be dark blues and purples and some pinks- like here.

I’m so fracking excited. :-) I get to marry my favorite person in the entire world and wake up to him every fracking day!

Next step- letting the roommate know she needs to find a roommate from Jan-June… ICK.

Confessions of a Socially Awkward College Chick

Posted in College, So I'm a bit crazy sometimes... on June 9, 2008 by Danielle Self

Have you ever been walking somewhere and started thinking to yourself that someone you walked by looked weird?

Then started going over in your head, if you ever had a conversation with this person how it would go?

Then you laugh because you’re playing out a situation that will never happen in your head?

Then laugh harder because you “say something stupid” to that fictional person?

Then you correct yourself?

Then you realize you’re talking to yourself?

Then you realize that you should stop because “only crazy people talk to themselves?”

Then you realize that you’re arguing with yourself in your head?

Then you try to tell yourself to stop again?

Then you realize that in trying to tell yourself to stop you are perpetuating the cycle of talking to yourself?

Then you realize that you are probably much weirder than that person that you just walked by and made fun of in your head?

Yea…. me either.

A Multitude of Happenings.

Posted in Daddy Issues, I heart Lists, Love, Work on June 6, 2008 by Danielle Self
  • T and I had lunch a couple days ago.  And it went perfectly.  Just as I hoped it would have.  Of course it was natural to want to flirt but other than that there was nothing.  I. Felt. Nothing.  And it was perfect.  We argued a lot because he doesn’t think that J is good enough for me…. but I assured him that I really didn’t care what he thought and that I was a big girl and I could do whatever I wanted.  I was amazed that I didn’t care to call him that night and overanalyze the entire situation.  I was amazed that when I told him he was stupid for dating a married woman and he got mad that I felt no need to apologize and grovel for forgiveness. I was amazed that when he left, a hug was sufficient.  I was amazed that all I could think about while sitting with him was J and how I couldn’t wait to see him again.
  • I’ve been back in Arkansas for about 3 weeks now and have yet to have an alcoholic drink besides the couple beers I had with J.  I’m more proud of myself than I think people even realize. HOWEVER, I am pretty dang tired of my roommate already.  Its 12:30 in the morning… I have class at 730… and there is a party going on in my living room.  Amazing how 3 jello shots and one mixed drink will have you wasted in a matter of… ohhhh…. 15 minutes?  Crazy.  Someone please shoot me.
  • My Fazzha called today and told me that he was sick and needed me to come and babysit my twin siblings. (Translation: “Daughter, I’m out of drugs and my surgery recovery time is up.  Time to find something else that makes me sick for 8-10 months.  Come over so I look legit.”) I’m so tired of it.  Thats a WHOLE nother ball game though… Maybe I’ll muster up the energy to release my daddy issues on everyone this weekened sometime… not right now though.  I’m too in the moment to be level headed about it.  But I’m not sure that after 15 years of being in the moment, that I’ll be able to take myself out of it.  I just wish he would man up and quit being such a dick head.
  • J…. ahhhh J….. I’m sticking to my theory that he is one of the more complicated men in this world.  I love him dearly but I can’t understand him worth anything.  One minute he’s lovey dovey and wants to elope because he can’t stand to be away from me and the next he’s saying that he refuses to get married until I’ve graduated.  I just really don’t know what to do.  I guess my only option is to just wait…
  • I got a job today :-) Finally! I’m going to be working at a tanning place in town.  Its not the best money in the world but it’ll do for now.
  • Oh!  And I’ve also started working out again everyday.  J won’t see me again until December and I want to make sure that I look better than ever :-)

Hm….

Posted in College, Random, Sorority on June 3, 2008 by Danielle Self

I’m selling some of my letter shirts on ebay. So far, I’ve gotten only one bid- but the chicka that has bid on them so far seems very very interesting.

“I’m in Belegarth Medieval Combat Society in the realm of Wolfpack of the High Plains. I go by Bevin there. I’m also in Pi Beta Phi sorority…I go by Amanda there.”

…. seriously?  Shes a LARPer.  AND a sorority girl.  You definitely don’t see that everyday.

**Had an interesting lunch with T today- will discuss in depth tomorrow when I don’t have to study for a hugeo midterm worth almost half my grade.

Okay Universe, I get it.

Posted in Hawaii, Love on June 1, 2008 by Danielle Self

Lo siento for my hiatus this past week.  I have been trying to spend every single waking moment with J.  Yesterday morning, I went with his family to take him to the airport. So naturally, yesterday was “crying day” where I just wallowed in self pity until I literally couldn’t cry anymore.  And today I’m back.  Actually its like 4 in the morning… I just woke up to talk to J via webcam when he got back to his barracks.  And decided while I’m up and still don’t have cable in my apartment I should get back to the blog of it.

So, yea.. again yesterday= crying/wallow in self pity day. It seemed like every freaking where I looked I saw Hawaii.  I took some boxes to the dumpster…. on my way there I got to pass a couple more buildings.  One of which had a huge ass “I Love Hawaii” beach towel hanging from the banister.  I literally yelled “F*ck You” to the people whose apartment it was and started crying.  They were sitting on the balcony and probably really confused.  Then I was laying down watching Ever After and I got to thinking- Drew Barrymore stars in the movie…. she also starred in “50 First Dates” which was filmed in Hawaii. Okay I’m kind of pulling a “The Number 23.”  But still it just seemed like Hawaii was following me all day yesterday.

Now I’m here.  In my apartment.  Laying in bed.  All alone.  J laid in this same bed with me just two nights ago.  Sucks.